Life is that, "a learning curve!" I feel something greater with-in my life and with-in myself I just don't know how to embrace the voices in my head and from my heart.... I don't fear change, but I do fear failure..... I totally shouldn't fear failure, cause through my life I've failed multiple times ( and I'm not talking about when you learn to walk and you fall down.) I'm talking about getting my GED and having to take the test over 10times, I'm talking about getting my associate's degree so I can join the military and then getting kicked out, I'm talking about moving to California and trying to be a rap star but intead, becoming addicted to methamphetamines) but I have always bounced back...... I know life has a greater purpose for me but I don't know what it is.... I do have a little voice in the back of my head that tells me too keep trying, but I don't know anymore...... The voice has gotten quieter and quieter over these last couple years, and I tend to get a boost of encouragement and confidence but one small failure puts me 10 miles back..... I'm absolutely confused right now, but I will never be confused about being a great parent and guiding my son in the right direction..... Sometimes I believe my failures will be my sons accomplishments but that will be known in time...... I absolutely see the beauty in everything and I absolutely know there so much more too life then this mouse wheel I'm on everyday...... (I'm never looking for a pity party or for a hand out, but too encourage other too find there greatness and embrace it before........) It's never too late, believe in yourself and go for it!
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